Yesterday My great aunt janet died at 6:35 AM. She was a wonderful person and I loved her very much. It hasn't really sunk in that I'm never going to see her again.

lately my life hasn't been going so well, I'v been very confused and what to do next and who i should be around.

I can't tell whats best for me and what to do.

Right now i could really use some friends, someone i could talk to and help me, someone i can trust.


Someone who cares

First, before I say anything I must let you know I am sorry for not being on and neglecting to write about the other letters. They are wonderful but none have surpirsed me as much as this one has. And with me saying that let me explain...

A couple words will do i believe...

OMG!!! HE PROPOSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I didnt know what to say, so many feelings rushed trough my head. I was scared, excited, nervous, tense, but mostly shocked down to my very core. I simply could not believe it. So I called up my sister/best friend to get her opinion on this matter and it turns out he wrote to her too!I was very upset when i heard this. Now before i go on let me explain why i was not pleased to hear he wrote her, A long time ago when me and him were dating he cheated on me with my sister/best friend {The one who he recently wrote to}. The news very nearly killed me. litterly. I was so upset I attempted to die. But one of my close friends somehow found out about my plan and called the cops. {This was not the first time iI'd tried to die} I was sent to arber-fuller {A mental hospital} So back to my explaination. I was not happy at all when I heard they were in contact but then my sister told me what he was writing to here and I was even more surprised. He actually only talked about how he loved ME to her. I was shocked. I told her what he had asked and she told me to deffinatly say yes. So I did. I CANT BELIEVE IM ENGAGED! The funny thning is I'd Never wanted to get married, I never pictured myself doing so. But now I can. This feeling is amazing!!! Wow...

So thats it. Is it not amazing or not? Now I'm sure many girls are going to be dissapointed, and some VERY upset and i feel sorry for them but I'm not giving him up. Never. So hopefully those girls will get over themselves and move on. I hope so because many of them i still care about and want to see them happy even though they have tried to ruin my life. But everyone deserves a second chance and I'm willing to give them one but I'ts up to them.

But now i must be off, I'v got things to do

First, before I say anything I must let you know I am sorry for not being on and neglecting to write about the other letters. They are wonderful but none have surpirsed me as much as this one has. And with me saying that let me explain...

A couple words will do i believe...

OMG!!! HE PROPOSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I didnt know what to say, so many feelings rushed trough my head. I was scared, excited, nervous, tense, but mostly shocked down to my very core. I simply could not believe it. So I called up my sister/best friend to get her opinion on this matter and it turns out he wrote to her too!I was very upset when i heard this. Now before i go on let me explain why i was not pleased to hear he wrote her, A long time ago when me and him were dating he cheated on me with my sister/best friend {The one who he recently wrote to}. The news very nearly killed me. litterly. I was so upset I attempted to die. But one of my close friends somehow found out about my plan and called the cops. {This was not the first time iI'd tried to die} I was sent to arber-fuller {A mental hospital} So back to my explaination. I was not happy at all when I heard they were in contact but then my sister told me what he was writing to here and I was even more surprised. He actually only talked about how he loved ME to her. I was shocked. I told her what he had asked and she told me to deffinatly say yes. So I did. I CANT BELIEVE IM ENGAGED! The funny thning is I'd Never wanted to get married, I never pictured myself doing so. But now I can. This feeling is amazing!!! Wow...

So thats it. Is it not amazing or not? Now I'm sure many girls are going to be dissapointed, and some VERY upset and i feel sorry for them but I'm not giving him up. Never. So hopefully those girls will get over themselves and move on. I hope so because many of them i still care about and want to see them happy even though they have tried to ruin my life. But everyone deserves a second chance and I'm willing to give them one but I'ts up to them.

But now i must be off, I'v got things to do

One word...


WOW............

All i have too say is


YAY!